Tuesday, 14 April 2015

Letters Home #AtoZchallenge




I write a letter every day, explaining, apologising. The same words over and over. But it’s not enough. My crime will never be forgotten, forgiven.
I address it neatly; I hate the way my writing slopes up on the envelope, so I take special care. Sometimes I write about what I’m doing, or what I’ve read or watched on TV. I tell them about the courses I’m taking, the counselling I’m having, the new friends I’m making.
They’re not even living there any more, at the house I’m sending my letters to. The house where I held tea parties for my teddies and marked my height on the wall; the house where I broke my arm playing Bulldog on sodden grass, and where I took a bread knife to my mother’s throat.
They’re not there because they packed up and moved far away; they couldn’t bear the memories. My mother had nightmares for months, even though I was locked up; Dad told me. He visited once, to tell me how bad I was, how evil. He wouldn’t let me explain. He walked away, while I screamed after him.
So, the house is dusty and boarded up, infamous and unsaleable. I imagine my letters echoing in the hall as they land, bunched up against the front door, unread.
But I can’t stop writing them.

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42 comments:

  1. So much emotion, great piece of writing.

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  2. I wonder what provoked (possessed?) her to turn on her mother like that.

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    1. A mother-daughter relationship can be pretty complex...

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  3. The whole pieces asks a huge why. So thought provoking even in its apparent hopelessness.
    Tasha
    Tasha's Thinkings | Wittegen Press | FB3X (AC)

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  4. My goodness, what an agonising tale. But should I feel sympathy for her?

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    1. A bit like your story today, Keith - I'm not sure if your MC deserves my sympathy!

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  5. Haunting and sad. What made her do it I wonder?

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    1. Sometimes, you just don't know what goes on in someone's head.

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  6. She brought a knife to her mother's throat? Now I want to know why.

    Alex already stole my word to describe this piece...haunting.

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    1. I imagine there's either a very complex story behind this, or a very simple one.

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  7. I'm so curious to know more about this character, why she put a knife to her mother's throat, etc. Haunting is definitely the right word to describe this piece.

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    1. To be honest, the knife sneaked up on me - I wasn't sure what was happening when I started writing, I just saw the letters piling up in an abandoned house!

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  8. Is it really a letter if no one is there to receive and read it? Very sad tale, but perhaps good if the character has no peace. Great writing

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    1. Oh, good question! No, the character isn't going to get the forgiveness she wants.

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  9. Annalisa, how I love you! Here I am reading along about this letter writer, it's a bit sad and nostalgic, and then WHAM! You trick me :). I love that about you! And you have such a spectacular dark side.

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    1. :-) Thanks Melissa, it's good to know I can still do that!

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  10. I'm sure I said it the last time I visited, but I will say it again - you have a beautiful writing style. This piece is just fantastic; I love it.
    Hopefully the people that you say "hello" to will think to do the same to others and "kuddles" from a loved one are just the best aren't they?! Thanks for stopping by my "J" and "K" posts.
    Brandy from Brandy's Bustlings

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  11. Hi Annalisa .. interesting take on Letters Home .. I wonder .. more to be told perhaps - but it also looks like a 'dead end' .. cheers Hilary

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    1. It does feel like the end of the story, doesn't it, Hilary? But that means the beginning is there to be explored, someday, maybe...

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  12. So sad. Beautiful piece, Annalisa.

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  13. Oh, this was dark and very haunting. And now I want to know more about what happened and what she wants to explain.

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    1. I'm not sure you can explain something that dark - and her parents really don't want to hear it!

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  14. Wow, this is creepy and disturbing. I loved it. I was just reading along, already intrigued when wham, "and where I took a bread knife to my mother's throat." Then I was mesmerized and had to know more. I assumed the mother was dead, but nope, she lived. How eerie, the narrator is locked up in a crazy place, her family, parents and friends have moved on and moved out. Yet, she still writes a letter every day. You have such a way with words. This little piece truly captured my attention and now I am sitting here wishing it was a full length novel that I could read into the night. Brilliant work.

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    1. Thank you so much Melissa. I'm so glad it grabbed you like that :-)

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  15. Those who do writing analysis says that writing that slopes upwards shows positivity and optimism. Not applicable here, though.

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    1. There's always an exception to every rule, Jay :-)

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  16. Haunting piece. I love it. Kind of reminds me of Ben by Doris Lessing, but that's a whole novel. You say so much in so few words.

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  17. That is an unnerving piece. Well done.

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  18. It feels like she's lying to herself about what she's done. For the house to be boarded up with no one else wanting to live there. She keeps writing letters, because she can't face the truth herself. Provoking piece!

    You can find me there:
    ClarabelleRant

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    1. I like it when people have to think about my writing. I think there might be some lighter posts on the way, but I can't be certain at the moment!

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  19. quite a sad tale,wish he had been given a chance

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    1. Maybe the chances came before the final assault?

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